So I signed my separation agreement.  That's it, I'm done, we're over.  Almost 17 years.  I never wanted to be here, I thought that I was going to, and I wanted to grow old with her…  

Gawd I hope the kids come out of this okay!  They're what's important now.  I need to make sure that they still see themselves as safe and loved.  And I will be whatever rock I need to be to make that happen.

I bought a new house a couple of weeks ago and I'll be moving into it in early May.  That'll be good.  A place of my own where I can make sure that they're as happy as possible.  As much as I hate this situation I'm excited about being able to move forward.  I'll finally be in a place where I can take care of myself and my girls and I can start healing.

Living in limbo has been hell.  But, I'm starting to see that there's a whole new world of possibilities and futures out there…  Maybe set up a photo studio in the house…  Definitely join another band!  

And all kinds of potential new relationships…   Now that's more than a little frightening!  But exciting too!!!